This is the story of DeeDee

Just a mom....and an academic professional, trying to get healthy.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

too much time....way too long.

Hi there,

It has been too long of a time since I've blogged. I got caught up in back to school, and never returned....I've been posting here and there on your blogs, but seriously not as much as I should. Such is the life of an elementary school principaI.

I am embarrassed to say that I have not lost any weight since school has started. I know portions are too big and I am not exercising. I've had one fill and had to postpone my next one until Nov. 9th. It is funny though....I've lost about 60 lbs since March....but my body seems to be rebelling with losing weight. It is not showing on the scale, however, is totally showing on my clothes. I can ALMOST shop at regular stores! I can fit into XL and XXL at Old Navy, which I love. Not too expensive, which is great, since I outgrow things so quickly.

Above is a recent pic of me in my size 18W jeans, and XXL shirt from Old Navy....very exciting! I added the other pic b/c I can't believe just how thin my face is getting. I love it.
So I am trying....I promise. I really want to get past 230 before the holidays.....I am at about 237 right now. UGH!
Sorry to be such a bad blogger....but going to try to be better.
Hope you are all well!

Sunday, September 12, 2010

So THAT'S what restriction feels like....

I got my first fill on Tuesday. And I did the obligatory liquids for 24 hours after that. But Wednesday-Friday, I felt like I could eat and eat and eat again....and needed to seriously rely on self-control....(which is what this SHOULD be about, right?)

Well, last night, I threw a surprise 40th anniversary party for my parents at a Chinese restaurant. I haven't had Chinese food since well before my surgery and was looking forward to it. It was a buffet, so I made my plate and sat down with it. It looked SOOOOO good! Took my first bite-chewed like crazy-swallowed, and thought....hmmmmm, not sure if I like this feeling. So I slowly ate a couple of more bites, and thought, I had better stop...since I can't leave if I am feeling sick, and I am afraid that I am going to be sick. I did enjoy the few bites that I ate, however, was so worried about the ramifications that I didn't go up for more....which is UNHEARD of for me....before surgery, at a Chinese buffet, success would have been only filling my plate twice! Now, I filled it once and ate less than half of it. It is a little sad, since I do LOVE Chinese, but when I am wearing my size 18 jeans for the first time today, I know I am going to love THAT way more than I love Chinese food.....

In another positive note....when I ate my 2 eggs over easy (with Pam) and 1 slice of whole wheat toast this am, I was full really fast. I think that I have restriction!!! YES! Now, I need to slow my eating down to catch up with my brain....I really need to work on that, and drinking my water which has been a couple and utter fail since school has started back. Is in normal for restriction not to happen until days after a fill? Don't misunderstand me, I am a realist, and know that this probably won't last forever....but I likey likey now!

While my weight loss has been slow since surgery, I have lost nearly 60 lbs since March (surgery was in July). I am loving how I feel....and how I look. And best of all, while I am still on a lot of diabetes medications, my blood sugar is FINALLY in control. I am hoping that they will wean me off of them slowly as I continue to lose weight.

It is a good post surgery day for me!

Enjoy your Sunday!

Sunday, September 5, 2010

I haven't fallen off the face of the earth....I promise!

Hello to my friends!

I am sorry that I have been absent....I could give you some lame-o last week it was back to school, and as the school principal, I was a little busy.... Or that the week before, I was on vacation, with very limited internet capacity.

But enough about excuses! I haven't lost much weight....really just tossed around the same 3-4 pounds. So that means that I have lost 40 pounds before surgery and 6-10 pounds since surgery. Not the progress that I would like, however, I will take it. When I went to my PCP, she had me at 290 in March. So that means from March to now, I have actually lost close to 60 pounds. Pretty crazy!

I go for my first fill on Tuesday, which I am pretty excited about. I bought some clothes today, and fit into 18W's and 1X. I am pretty excited about the new sizes.... Yay! I got a pair of jeans that I feel AMAZING in! YAY!

So I am here...and I am alive. And I love you for checking on me!

Thank you for all you do! Thank you for being you!

Friday, August 20, 2010

My fill.....dashed

So, as I was about to get my fill today, I laid down on the table to tell my dr. that I would be going away for the week this weekend, and he said, "sit up....I am not giving you a fill"....I had psyched myself up for it, but he doesn't want to risk it with my first fill. We will be in the boonies of New Hampshire, and probably wouldn't be able to get to a hospital easily if something happened. While I am disappointed, I get now....I wait. And have to display some major self-control. I guess that is what it is all about!!!!

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Bandster Hell?

I don't even know what this is!!!! I guess I thought it was the time after surgery when you are still eating liquids....but then I have heard people refer to it as that time between eating soft solids their first fill. So...which is it?

I have gone from mushies to soft solids chewed up REALLY well. I've had only one or two minor "stuck" incidents. I am going for my first fill on Friday. I was toying with cancelling since I am going on vacation right after, but I have put on a couple of pounds...which is scaring the crap out of me. I am eating WAY less then I am used to....and at times, I am still even a little hungry after I eat....but I make myself stop. I just hope that this turns around.

So...what is your definition of Bandster Hell???

Also, sorry that I haven't been around. School opens in 2 weeks, and I am freaking out! Trying to catch up today!

Hoping to drop some pounds this week....

Friday, August 6, 2010

yucky belly

Okay, ladies...I need some advice....

I was banded on July, about 2 1/2 weeks ago. I am doing primarily liquids, and mushies. I have this dull pain in my stomach area, on the inside. I don't know if this is normal, or if it is something that I should go see the dr. about. It is beginning to piss me off!! I had trouble sleeping last night-getting comfy, etc. I still can't sleep on my belly-it just hurts too much. I am shocked that it has taken this long to recover....I am starting to get discouraged...Any thoughts would be so appreciated!

My belly still hurts,

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Small NSV!

Today I am wearing the dress that I wore to my rehearsal dinner 7 years ago! I loved the dress, but quickly outgrew it shortly after I wore it for the first or second time. So I shoved it in the back of my closet, thinking that someday, someway, I would get into this dress. Today is the day! I was going to save it as my back to school dress...but unfortunately, I need to go to a funeral. :( It is adorable...if I do say so myself, and with the right undergarments, it looks great on me! Yay!!

The scale seems to be stuck at 230 with a .2, .4, .8 after it....I hope that when I wake up tomorrow the scale starts with a 22-. Now that would be AMAZING!

Enjoy your day! It is hot, humid and sticky here in Massachusetts........

DeeDee :)