This is the story of DeeDee

Just a mom....and an academic professional, trying to get healthy.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

So THAT'S what restriction feels like....

I got my first fill on Tuesday. And I did the obligatory liquids for 24 hours after that. But Wednesday-Friday, I felt like I could eat and eat and eat again....and needed to seriously rely on self-control....(which is what this SHOULD be about, right?)

Well, last night, I threw a surprise 40th anniversary party for my parents at a Chinese restaurant. I haven't had Chinese food since well before my surgery and was looking forward to it. It was a buffet, so I made my plate and sat down with it. It looked SOOOOO good! Took my first bite-chewed like crazy-swallowed, and thought....hmmmmm, not sure if I like this feeling. So I slowly ate a couple of more bites, and thought, I had better stop...since I can't leave if I am feeling sick, and I am afraid that I am going to be sick. I did enjoy the few bites that I ate, however, was so worried about the ramifications that I didn't go up for more....which is UNHEARD of for me....before surgery, at a Chinese buffet, success would have been only filling my plate twice! Now, I filled it once and ate less than half of it. It is a little sad, since I do LOVE Chinese, but when I am wearing my size 18 jeans for the first time today, I know I am going to love THAT way more than I love Chinese food.....

In another positive note....when I ate my 2 eggs over easy (with Pam) and 1 slice of whole wheat toast this am, I was full really fast. I think that I have restriction!!! YES! Now, I need to slow my eating down to catch up with my brain....I really need to work on that, and drinking my water which has been a couple and utter fail since school has started back. Is in normal for restriction not to happen until days after a fill? Don't misunderstand me, I am a realist, and know that this probably won't last forever....but I likey likey now!

While my weight loss has been slow since surgery, I have lost nearly 60 lbs since March (surgery was in July). I am loving how I feel....and how I look. And best of all, while I am still on a lot of diabetes medications, my blood sugar is FINALLY in control. I am hoping that they will wean me off of them slowly as I continue to lose weight.

It is a good post surgery day for me!

Enjoy your Sunday!

Sunday, September 5, 2010

I haven't fallen off the face of the earth....I promise!

Hello to my friends!

I am sorry that I have been absent....I could give you some lame-o last week it was back to school, and as the school principal, I was a little busy.... Or that the week before, I was on vacation, with very limited internet capacity.

But enough about excuses! I haven't lost much weight....really just tossed around the same 3-4 pounds. So that means that I have lost 40 pounds before surgery and 6-10 pounds since surgery. Not the progress that I would like, however, I will take it. When I went to my PCP, she had me at 290 in March. So that means from March to now, I have actually lost close to 60 pounds. Pretty crazy!

I go for my first fill on Tuesday, which I am pretty excited about. I bought some clothes today, and fit into 18W's and 1X. I am pretty excited about the new sizes.... Yay! I got a pair of jeans that I feel AMAZING in! YAY!

So I am here...and I am alive. And I love you for checking on me!

Thank you for all you do! Thank you for being you!